Found my best friend dodging busses on my busy city street in 2014. I never thought that I could take in a kitten from the street and he would survive, but here we are 10 years later.2mo ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/cat
Living with schizoaffective disorder here - I have sketchbooks full of heavily patterned drawings from before I started meds. This is my favorite.5mo ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/Artisticallyill
I draw patterns during psychosis. Some people (who don't know I get psychotic) find them scary or unsettling - I don't know why.3yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Another drawing from psychosis, created from my hospital bed during my last inpatient stay. They had just put me on meds and I felt a sense of calm I hadn't felt in years.4mo ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/Artisticallyill
My great-grandmother and I. She was one source of my SZA genes - likely schizoaffective or bipolar. A truly gifted lady who spent time in institutions receiving ECT for depression and psychosis.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
My great-grandmother was bipolar and very intelligent. I never met her, but I think about her and what she went through (shock treatments/institutionalization) often since my own diagnosis. I love her personal yearbook quote.3yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Today is the two year anniversary of my last release from inpatient.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
I try not to isolate myself, but I'm too surrounded by people at work. Being bombarded with social interactions is stressful and I badly need a break.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
I never thought this day would come - got a new job that pays MUCH better than the one I quit during psychosis and moved into a new apartment! Cat is happy. I am happy and stable. I was planning to end my life last September but dreams do come true, my friends!3yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Worked 52 hours the past week and I'm EXHAUSTED. Selfie from the bathroom at work. Spent the weekend on the couch watching movies and moving as little as humanly possible.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
It is my birthday today! I made it to 34 years old 😎. Selfie of me heading to work this morning.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
I used to photograph abandoned places before my first episode, including this power plant at a large psychiatric hospital. It's strange to think I would have been a permanent resident here back in the day. Thankful for modern meds and thinking about picking up photography again.4mo ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Finally mustered the strength to dye my hair for the first time in 6 months. Back to the color I always was before my diagnosis. Happy Selfie Sunday!2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
I slept at least 12 hours last night and can't seem to wake up today. But I'm doing better this week versus last. Got a haircut and started drawing something inspired by a beautiful tree stump I saw.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Depression is beating me this week. I'm exercising, I'm working on my first commission, I'm socializing, there is just no relief from the suicidal thoughts. People all around me and I feel so alone.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Selfie Sunday! I found out I was extremely iron deficient a few weeks ago. Started taking iron pills and my energy increased. No more suicidal thoughts either!1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Having a weird day. Found out my psychiatrist had his license suspended for malpractice in 2010 and read the official case records - it's a really disturbing story. Unbelievable that he didn't have his license revoked. He's been negligent and careless with me and I'm officially done.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Before and after Abilify. A bit rounder now (around 11 lbs) but it's so worth it for my sanity.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Selfie of me during psychosis a few years ago vs selfie of me running out to get my meds today. Hope you are all having a good day! 😊2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Got myself an old school mood tracker (mood ring) to poke fun at my ever-changing moods 😅3yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Me unmedicated and exhausted a few years ago. A street photographer caught me picking my skin. It's a strange feeling when everyone on the train moves away from the homeless person muttering to himself and towards me. I know the only difference is that my family took me in when I was struggling.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Just worked my third 60 hour 5 day work week in a row. Selfie of me hiding in the bathroom for a break yesterday. So tired.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
A sleepy Selfie Sunday - spent the weekend watching medical documentaries and getting ready to turn 35 in a few weeks (napping).1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Selfie from the doctor's office this week - trying to take care of my physical health as well as my mental health. Next stop, kidney stone removal. 😬1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Selfie Sunday - I'm having symptoms after a series of nightmares last night. 😪 Sticking to my routine to try to curb them.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Drew this in bed in the psych ward - I felt some measure of peace for the first time in months3yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Me before meds in 2020, terrified in bed during psychosis, vs me yesterday after a nice long bike ride. Thank you, Abilify!2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Just survived a 57 hour 5 day work week. Ask me anything. (Photo of my cat annoyed me with for working too hard)2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Selfie Sunday - my last selfie before the 10 months of psychosis that led to my diagnosis last year. (It's nice to see all of your faces, by the way!)2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
When I feel suicidal from now on, I'm just going to post a drawing or a painting. Because the dream of being an artist someday is really the only thing that keeps me going.1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Chilling on couch listening to Bowie's Oh! You Pretty Things - thought of you all. Happy Selfie Sunday, my fellow Homo Superiors!2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Happy and confident after my first psychotic break, but before my second (the one that lasted around 10 months).1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Been working 60 hour 5 day work weeks for the past month. I would have a nervous breakdown if I could find the time. ✌️2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Happy Selfie Sunday! Work stress hitting new highs as I might be getting replaced. Ask me anything, I guess. 😬1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Got my kidney stone out. I was afraid of side effects from anesthesia but I just slept, no breaks from reality. I'm in pain now, but my kitties are comforting me. 💜1yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Yet another pattern from psychosis. I don't remember drawing this one but I think it was from a bad episode I had in 2019.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
My first school picture (age 5). I remember exactly what went through my head and I was not happy.2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
Trying to center my oblong pills in this round pill cutter is the bane of my existence2yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Haven't posted in a while! I'm alive and well (ignore the black eye from a clumsy incident that involved an electronic device falling on my face). Photographed my first two paid clients. Happy. Stable.1mo ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
First selfie after the psych ward - I was so happy to have sunlight again and took this through a privacy sticker they put over my phone cameras in the hospital.3yr ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/bipolar
Happy Selfie Sunday! I've been extremely stressed with work lately - my boss is trying to replace me again. I wish it was just paranoia, but it's not. 😓8mo ⋅ scaredferal ⋅ r/schizophrenia
