Going to cousin’s baby shower tomorrow at my aunt’s. Cousin had a LoNg & sCaRy jOuRnEy: 4 months of her “wondering if I’ll have trouble like you”. So I wrapped each tiny present individually with glitter paper and threw in an extra glittery card. I’m calling the glitter ‘baby dust’ for deniability.

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MRW someone in an egg donation group asks if they can buy “boy eggs”. No, she doesn’t want embryos. Just eggs. Eggs that will make boys. Can she test the eggs to make sure they have just a Y chromosome and no X? Her last 2 cycles “only gave me girl embryos, so now I want to start with boy eggs”.

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Me, sitting at home alone on the couch, as my spouse flies across the country to fertilize our donor eggs. Eating chocolate and crying as I’m finally letting myself feel the Loss that is using donor eggs.

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Momentarily feeling inadequate while looking at egg donor profiles with my spouse. So I asked him if he is supposed to be attracted to our egg donor. Without skipping a beat, he hugged me and said: “I’m really attracted to YOU!”

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Me to myself as I discreetly tuck my underwear inside my folded pants and place them properly next to my purse on the chair before my SIS. I then leaked a puddle of bloody saline onto my doctor’s shoe during the procedure. Stay classy, fellow infertiles.

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Me: rubbing my own back, sore from all the damn PIO shots. Male friend: Does it ever bug you to know that if these meds were for men like me, they'd have invented a pill by now? Because there's no way they'd actually make guys do that.

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Put myself out there for NIAW and got this response “trying to make your own children while there are other children suffering is incredibly selfish”. I’m speechless with this fucking asshat.

3yr ⋅

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Friend lives perfect life and gets pregnant the first month. Announces pregnancy to me (5 miscarriages, 4 with heartbeats) & BFF (who had to TMFR) by saying “ultrasound heartbeat was strong today so we’re in the clear to share and baby is perfect! I’m going to be a mom soon!”

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Call from the local org for blood donors. “I’m getting infertility treatments. I can’t donate. Sorry!” Him: “Ha! As a father of 4, be careful you don’t get more kids than you can handle. Haha.” Can’t decide between screaming at the fucking show off with 4 kids or crying that he mocked my diagnosis.

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Good thing we were never that close.

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