To everyone who is struggling with today. All of us who wished 2022 would have gone differently... I am wishing a gentle new year for you, that 2023 is kind to you. That you prioritize your health and happiness. Sending love to you and yours 💕

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When your friend sends you a meme about how draining motherhood is so you respond with “still sounds better than being infertile”. Stings a bit more since she knows our struggle and how desperate I am to be a mom.

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Went to the ER for severe abdominal pain. Turned out that after almost 2 years of TTC, I was 7 weeks along with an ectopic pregnancy. Devastated doesn’t begin to cover it. And today was supposed to be my fertility doctor consult. Oh the irony.

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My reaction when I found out the secretary at my school will be having her SECOND baby in the time I have been trying for 1 (her 4th overall, they will all be under 4yrs old) AND SHE WAS ON THE PILL. How the fuck... Getting lapped by someone “preventing” cuts extra deep. So tired of the jOuRnEy.

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Sitting here two month post loss and on my period with especially painful cramps, crying my eyes out as I think about all my pregnant friends and family wondering if and when it will ever get better... cycle 23 was a fail. This shit sucks...

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When you have to get your pap and of course it’s the day all the pregnant women in a 30 mile radius apparently have appointments too.

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MRW my sister hits me with the “just adopt!” because her friend did that and it totally solved all her infertility woes. Guess that’s another person I can cross of my list of confidantes as we dive face first into IVF..

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Anyone else get a surprise face-to-face pregnancy announcement right after halftime? Just me? Cool.

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MRW my good friends and their 3yo are on their way to visit and they were ADAMANT about hanging out soon and you are convinced there will be an in-person announcement of number 2’s impending arrival.

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When you have a shit ass day at work and remember that if your life wasn’t a cruel joke and had gone literally centimeters differently, you’d be out on mat leave right now instead of dealing with loss grief and other peoples rude children all day.

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MRW I get my HSG results back and the doctor diagnoses me with two blocked fallopian tubes...but I had one removed as a result of a ruptured ectopic. But they both show up on my imaging...But the ER doc said he removed one...What the actual....🤯🤯🤯

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3 month anniversary of my loss. Came home to my period starting. Fuck this journey.

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Had my RE consult today. I knew logically he’d say my tubes had to come out, but I didn’t realize what that meant as far as grieving any possible remaining “natural fertility”. Wow this is heavy..

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2 years TTC. One ectopic pregnancy in August. So I request bloodwork from my Gyn and he says “no. It won’t tell us anything. You have regular periods, and it’s only been a few months since your pregnancy. Feel free to get a second opinion, though. “Dr. Google” can be misleading.” I. Am. Furious.

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MRW the new doctor I get tells me to stop TTC immediately because of issues I have had since before starting TTC that my other doctors blew off as no big deal. Could have prevented so much heartache. TTC is officially paused. We’ve been waiting for 2 years, what’s several months more. 😒

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My mantra for the next month as I await my second HSG knowing full well what I’m in for since the first one was so brutally painful I almost puked and passed out.

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When you’re talking with your pregnant bestie about when she is going to start telling our boss/coworkers and it hits me that if I hadn’t lost my baby in August I’d have been 15 weeks right now and telling everyone i possibly could.

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How I look trying to decide if I should have my first medicated cycle this month or “waste” a cycle and wait until August because I selfishly have a trip to Italy planned (sans husband) that is supposed to end the day before my period is supposed to start.

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Doctor 1: no, I won’t do labs. Doctor 2: sure, here’s an appointment. Doctor 2 again: oh actually no, I don’t see people for that, appointment canceled. Doctor 2’s nurse: I can get you in with a midwife, final offer. (Fingers crossed the midwife actually listens to my concerns and runs labs...)

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