He sent this in 2020. Weβve been NC since 2021. Iβm in a new relationship where I am treated well and generally happy. In coming across this reminder in Google Photos, I also came across all of the memories of why we arenβt together. It was not healthy. But I still echo these feelings every day.
Last night I finally told DM how he hurt me, that I love him anyway, we're both in pain, and so I am leaving him. Since then I've been feeling EUPHORIC!? I was so afraid to do it, to stand up for myself and firmly say goodbye because I had anticipated being s heartbroken-- but i just felt RELEASE!!!
Patience is a lot like trusting a free fall or being buoyed by the current to uncertain destination-you donβt know where youβll end up but you trust the benevolence of it. Believing in this goodness or love allows for total surrender of ego in connection to time, what is left is trust in the present
